Disappointments

human nature

You remember them, many of them, they don't remember you, so many of them.

You give freely, your writing work that helps even unawares; they give freely of words, which consume more than help, they're aware but don't want to heed.

Resources you optimally, essentially need, they consume wastefully yet refuse to release from their hoardings, to your better management.

They ignore and dawdle till they're forced to pay you, while you'd rather farm your own and evolve to the next improved.